What I feel like today

I think my mood about pregnancy changes almost daily. Today I feel large and unkempt. I have never (I repeat NEVER) wanted to go clothes shopping this bad. I would like to look like a woman who is carrying a child. I feel like a circus tent. I know there are better options out there and I will have to make up my mind that this is important to me, not a waste of time and energy, and let go of the money it takes to have clothes that fit me. I didn’t feel this urge when I dieted and lost 10 pounds. It was even part of the diet to lift your spirits and show yourself how great you look and feel to buy some new clothes that fit the new body. I flat refused. I am just cheap and clothes have never been a priority. Today, it is a priority. I am even considering a foray into internet shopping *gasp* something else I have never had an urge for. I don’t think I would do it but the physical stores in this area have reduced or eliminated their maternity sections to the point that it is a waste of time to go and check Target just to see if they have a maternity section this week.

I also feel like I can’t wait until I am not preggers anymore and I want to see the baby and what she is like. I get very excited thinking of holding her and watching her and learning about her. But then I realize when she gets here I will officially be a PARENT! That is getting a little scary. So, I am torn between hurry up and get here and maybe I could wait a little longer.

I think I will focus on how short a time this pregnancy really is and how I do not plan to have this happen very often in my life. Surely, I will not even spend a great amount of time looking like a circus tent. Maybe that’s what I should be for Halloween?

Jackson and his mew-mew

This is Jackson's stuffed cat Mew-Mew. We thought it was a goner as soon as we gave it to him. He is mostly lab but apparently a mild chewer. He really chews on bones but just slobbers on the cat. Well, he shakes it to break it's neck and sometimes tosses it in the air.

Clara's Tree

I planted Clara's tree on Sunday. It was given to us by a friend who grew it from a local tree acorn. When Clara comes and the tree greens out in the spring we will start taking her picture to watch both of them grow. By the way I am at 24 weeks in this picture.

Walking home for lunch

I love my neighborhood for many reasons. One is that I have the good fortune to walk home in good weather and see things like this. It does a soul good. I also have walked home in not-so-good weather, but it was a better option than no car=no lunch. I won't be able to walk from work to the baby's daycare to feed her at lunch, just because of time constraints. We picked the center on the other side of our house from work instead of the one downhill from the office. It may take 7 mins to get there because of two left turns on/off of the main drag. I bet it is faster going back when those turn into right hand turns. Nate said he would like to trade with me to sometimes feed the baby at lunch. I think that is just great. More pumping for me, but awesome quality time for him.

Jackson and his likeness at the VW show

I just HAD to have a picture of these two. Never thought I would see another dog like Jackson.

20 Weeks Pregnant

Beautiful Way to Drive/Walk Home